Words of a Lost Soul

Time flew real fast. No wonder, we aren't really ready to witness another year end, cause it still feels early, as if the year has just begun. And now when we look back to how it all was, everything seems to become unclear, hazy, as if the whole year was fogged with our dreamy desires, the reality being quite different. Most of us lost more than we sought, while some of us were down to struggle for survival. We went through heartbreaks, disappointments, rejections and failures a lot more times than we thought. We felt the pain of being someone we never thought we could be. But every single time we thought we couldn't survive, we came out even more stronger, better and wiser. Don't just stick to the negative part of everything. You had a fair share of laughter, love, positivity and peace. Yes, you did lose some people, but this doesn't mean that you stop appreciating those, who strived to make this year a lot more beautiful for you. If you think you had a bad year, think...

Can you define love? Or maybe, just express something about it? You might say you love someone to the moon and back, or you love what you do, or you might even name your favourite cuisine, sport, celebrity and so on. You are so enthusiastic about it, that you consider it your forever, not really knowing about it completely, and eventually you get bored of it. You never choose to speak about your boredom, and probably even ignore the feeling, but deep down you feel unstable, as if, your own soul and conscience are condemning your impatience. That's when you begin to realise that the forever you dreamt of was a mere attempt to escape the reality. No sooner, you begin to experience it's consequences, which shatters you, and breaks your heart, leading you to disappointment, hate, regret and dismay Yes, having faith in love amidst all the hate and chaos is something just like falling from a cliff and expecting to fly. But there are times, when you are standing on the edge of cliff,...

As soon as I stepped in my home, I threw my bag and jumped into the bed, to sleep away my worries, my disappointments, my embarrassments and those few disastrous moments, which spoiled my entire day. I just couldn't digest the fact that it was me, who suffered all day long. I didn't want to think about it, but my mind and heart replayed those moments as if they were the best ones of my life, and somewhere within me, my irritation and frustration were beginning to take control of what I should do, instead of what I must be doing. And unknowingly yet inevitably, I started behaving rudely, spoiling my own relations, satisfying my own guilt filled with ego and hurt. I began to do things I hated, finding pleasure in punishing myself and hating the way I am even more. It was as if those few bad moments were much more important than the good and the positive ones. I know it feels horrible. It feels horrible when we are scolded, kicked out, screamed at, mocked at, and sometimes even un...

Don't you often make up your mind about treating someone the way they treat you? And when you actually start to behave in the exact way they do, you inevitably begin to feel bad about it, and wage a war against yourself, and sadly, the other person knows nothing about it. When you go through that extreme emotional war, which involves them laughing at you and seeking you only when they need something, you feel your soul demanding and pleading for mercy, freedom recognition and respect, and your ego asking you to wait for the impossible. You slowly begin to give up on such people, and become enlightened enough to give them what they deserve, which does require a lot of courage and positivity, but it opens a door to unpopularity and insecurity, cause such people, who were dependent on you for their benefits, begin to hate your decision and call it your ego, your attitude, your pride, which eventually weakens you into thinking negative about yourself Listen, it isn't your ego. It...

You love silence, don't you? You love the way your thoughts flow in that still atmosphere. You love the way you immerse yourself in your beautiful world. You love that perfect blend of reality with your imagination. You love giving attention to details. You hesitate to come out of those divine moments, as if every passing moment is curing you magically healing your uncared, unloved wounds, strengthening you in ways you never really thought of and enlightening you with a completely new way of living. You begin to find solace in the silence, and while you do so, you feel your demons calming down, struggling to believe who they are, repenting their own will to choose hate over love, chaos over peace, and slowly dissolving into the beauty of the darkness which only existed as long as they lived Silence is beautiful, for it helps you find yourself. It isn't empty, it's filled with answers. It brings you peace, which you seek in everything else but Silence, It fuels you up with t...