Words of a Lost Soul

It was yet another sleepless night, with my head buried in the pillow, wet with my emotions dripping on it uncontrollably. I could feel my demons punishing me for the sins I never commited. And with every drop pouring down from my regretful eyes, I could feel the loneliness mocking me. I felt caged in the most deceptive way, for I realised what really hurt me, and at the same time, I wasn't ready to accept it. I didn't want to blame every other person who ruined me for their pleasure, for I still cared about them as much as I had promised them then. Yes, I felt stupid, but at the end of the day, my heart still belonged to them.  I felt blur, not only from my mind, but from my soul, from the deepest part of me, for every other sunrise felt dull before my red eyes, and the moon just felt like another lie, for it's existence was blindly dependent on the sun. But unlike people, the sun never betrayed the moon. I couldn't find my happy self even in the purest of my reflect...

"The concept of love is so absurd. I mean, it's just pain wrapped up in the most beautiful form of pleasure which attracts us in a way we can't refuse. You know, I don't hate to be in love, I am just scared of it. I am scared to fall for someone who pretends to be sure about me, but isn't. And honestly, it's hard to fall in love with me. I have learnt to not give away myself so easily", she smiled a bit, and with tears in her eyes, she confessed her deepest fear. "I wonder if I will ever know what true love is. I wonder if I will ever find a person who would conquer my demons and remind me of the angels which once used to reside in me. I just wonder if I will ever be loveable", she blurted out, and looked straight into my eyes, and fell on my shoulder, sobbing badly. I was at loss of words, for I had never known what true love is like. But one thing I was sure of, was that, no person is hard to love. It's just about realising the beauty of t...