Words of a Lost Soul

Do you ever feel loneliness so much so that you begin to cry all of a sudden? Have you ever felt the pain, in the tears trickling down from your eyes? Don't you feel unheard, unloved and unattended? You feel like the waves which are never able to get enough of the shore. You feel like the moon beautiful yet dependant. You feel like the emotion which is always suppressed. And when your delicate heart refuses to hold the guilt of being alone, your mind wages a war against you, cursing you for your loneliness. You begin to hate yourself, for everyone and everything around you narrates how beautiful it is to have someone by your side. You pretend to not really care, but deep down you feel empty and broken. Your brokenness expresses your desire of being loved the way you imagine to be perfect .🙏

At times, you must have felt like a dry leaf, crushed by everyone walking on it, while some of them deliberately stepping on it, just to seek pleasure out of the sound it makes when suppressed under feet. And often, the feeling is too empty to be weighed by our heart, heavy with emotions. You feel strange within your own self, as if your soul doesn't belong to you, as if it's just tired of feeling everything which isn't meant for it. And that's when you realise that loneliness isn't about not having friends or family or anybody to talk to, it's just about not having yourself with you. You wage a war against your mind to feel complete, but with every moment you spend searching for the reality, your mind begins to triumph, for it knows how you feel extremely well.  But no, this isn't your reality, and trust me, your heart knows it. For a moment, just stop thinking about what makes you feel empty and unwanted, and start thinking about why are you feeling it. T...

There are cons of being broken. You find yourself handicapped..emotionally and mentally. You get numb to those feelings which existed so strongly once. To be with a broken heart is to walk on the sharpest edges of a broken piece of glass intentionally ignoring the existence of its capability to give deep cuts when handled. After meeting you I got to know how much guts it takes to accept the incompleteness of a story with the most beautiful and widest smile. I may sound selfish..but believe me having you..feeling you..is to feel what earth feels after being kissed by first rains on the hottest summer noon. The scariest part isn't when you are afraid of being called as a sinner but the murderer of the one who had always showered the purest form of love on you. Sweetheart, Life isn't a bitch..Time is. In you I found myself. Meeting you at the wrong turn of my life just to make you leave..has broken me more than what it will do to you. Pretending to be blind and being b...