Words of a Lost Soul

When you’re the person who is always there for others — you feel a lot. You have depths within you, an ocean for a heart, and you sometimes fall for people who are too afraid to swim. You give and you give and you give. You never know how to stop yourself from pouring into those you love. And so, there are moments where a tender ache sometimes forms within your unhinged chest. There are moments where you are left wondering if someone will ever give you the love you so freely give to others, moments where you wonder if there will ever come a time when someone asks how you are doing, how you are coping, how you are healing. See, sometimes the person who is always there for everyone else, needs someone there for them. Sometimes, the person who smiles the biggest holds the biggest hurt. Sometimes the person who encourages everyone around them needs to be told that they are appreciated, that they matter; sometimes they need to be encouraged, sometimes they need to be held — no mat...

There are times, when your heart drifts away to a silent, dark corner while your mind replays the past; filled with happy memories and inevitable hopes. You feel stranded, like a small boat in the middle of a huge sea storm, slightly willing to drown, for the harsh winds and the cruel waves remind you of the lovelorn heart you have been living with. Every moment feels forced, as if you just exist for the sake of it, and the love you crave for dies in you. Loneliness becomes your only companion, and every night reminds of how unlovable you are. It just so happens that everyone you once adored now feel like someone who had been bearing you. You disrespect yourself so much so that you begin to feel like everyone deserves someone better than you. Well, yes, it isn't easy to find who you are truly are and fall in love with the idea of it, but it's certainly not difficult to begin the process of knowing oneself. Every negative thought which crosses your mind affects you in ways you ...