You have to stop searching for why at some point you have to leave it alone.
Yes, there's a reason behind everything, but sometimes, it's better to not seek it, for the very same reason might be something you are trying to run away from, something you are trying to overcome, something you don't want to accept and something which hurts your soul. But that's not how we are. We think until we are hurt. We think until we begin to distrust love. We think until we lose faith in people. We think until we are shattered. Well, people aren't what you perceive them to be. They leave you all of a sudden, without a warning, which makes you feel guilty of everything that had happened, creating an unnerving desperation within you, giving rise to deadly curiosity, filled with untold amounts of care and frustration. Learn to rest and leave things as they are. I know it hurts, and it hurts cause you care. And at that point of time, you just don't know if they are worth your love and affection, but you don't really give up. It feels as if you are losin...