Words of a Lost Soul

Don't you feel tired of the silence giving rising to your anxiety cause of the patience you are supposed to keep? You are always taught to wait for the perfect moment, no matter what it is. You are fed with the fear of missing out the extraordinary by pursuing the ordinary. And to some extent, you do feel the significance of the fear. But sometimes, when you lose yourself in the story which isn't meant for you; you rush to find it's conclusion. And at that moment, you feel mighty enough to rebel against everything which comes in your way of chasing the beauty you think you deserve. You feel it's the last thing which could serve your purpose, for it's charm entices your mind and body to feel the heaven present in it. And by the time you realise that you have stepped in hell through the gates which resembled of the heavens, the only forever you are left with, is your guilt and regret.  You desperately search for ways to find the light you deserve, and during the proc...

Do you ever feel drowned in your own ocean? Isn't the feeling more like being away from home in the home? Things you once used to adore start to become a source of hate and disgust. You feel suffocated in your own company, and the worst of all is the loneliness which begins to kill you slowly and cruelly. You feel like the last leaf, hanging onto the cold autumn tree, afraid of the winds; but at the same time, desiring to abandon the same. You feel insecure about the beauty everyone around you has got, and the frustration of not being who they are invites unhappiness in your heart. You no longer wish to stay with yourself, and your urge to seek others makes you helpless.  You don't even realise who you are, for every single thought of yours is filled with doubt and anxiety. And the more you dig in, you feel the emptiness weighing your soul, until there's a moment, when you realise you have survived it all. You realise that you have survived the worst of everything, and lik...